And in recent news, there is a miraculous being growing inside me :)
My babies eyes are forming 0.o
See that little blob in the middle of all that blackness? That, people, is the amazing creation growing inside of me.
Sorry about the blurriness. Can’t work a fucking scanner.
My baby was moving all over the place at the last ultrasound.
It was amazing.
Pepper already loves his little brother/sister.
My little Lily,
I’ve had no complaints thus far in my pregnancy, but you’re starting to make daily tasks rather difficult. Late night ER trips are no fun either, hun. I know you’ve got to make room in there so you can grow, but take it easy on me. I’m not a big fan of pain, and at times you KILL me. I’ll love you regardless, but if you want a college fund you better start to calm down… just kidding :)
But really, stop making my insides stretch so quickly.
Weird Pregnancy Occurrence:
feeling Lily’s foot just resting against the side of my stomach.
She’s a weird one, k.
Happy one week, beautiful baby girl!
Its too early for this, mom!
FINALLY.
Zerbert zone is the whole baby.anatomy of a baby
Most of the labeled parts (except for the Pee and Poop Factories) also function as Nom Zones.
mooshy lol :)
I’ve got a lot of shit I’ve been wanting to post, but I haven’t had the time or energy.
I am literally dragging ass every day. I knew I was gonna miss my sleep (it was my favorite hobby) but I’m disappointed in myself for not handling this better. I do the whole “sleep when she sleeps” thing, but it doesn’t matter how many total hrs of sleep you get during the day if it’s all broken up in two hr increments. It’s not like I don’t have help, because I do. My friends, my mother, and Eric’s mother all volunteer to watch her so I can get a few more hrs sleep, and I gladly let them. It’s just.. It will never be enough. Heads up to the followers out there trying to help out a new mama, volunteer to feed the baby overnight. I promise they will love you forever. A good 8 hrs of sleep seems like heaven right now. But this whole post isn’t about the sleep I’m not getting, it’s also about the odd relationship I have with Lily’s biological father. Most people would say I’m extremely lucky that my situation has worked out the way it has, and usually I would agree. But lately I’ve just been so uncomfortable with it, and it’s not like me to feel awkward in any situation. He’s made it very clear that he would love nothing more than to be with me & take care of our daughter together as a family. That sounds very lovely and all, but you have to keep in mind this is the same motherfucker who left me when I was 3 months pregnant and began dating a girl in a different state that he knew for a whole week. My feelings are still hurt about the situation and I’ve made it known. I’ve told him that him telling me he loved me was completely inappropriate and he needed to respect my relationship with Eric. He agreed; he actually has some morals. It infuriates me that people don’t take my relationship seriously. Do others not consider the fact that I was nearly 5 months along in my pregnancy when I began dating Eric, or that I’m the only female his son has ever met? We had children to worry about, too, not just each other. Though our relationship progressed quickly, it was something we put a lot of thought into before making it official. We didn’t just dive in. This was something I had to explain to Lily’s father last night, and the fact that I even had to explain just pisses me off. A lot of things piss me off, but still. I still care about his feelings. I don’t know why, but I do. I guess there is a good person somewhere inside me. A too-quick-to-forgive good person. But I’m working on it. I actually enjoy being his friend. I enjoy his company. (obviously, or why else would I have ever dated him?) But I don’t enjoy having my relationship discredited or being made to feel like I am to blame for my unconventional family. I love my family, no matter how dysfunctional it is. And I guess I’ll be figuring out how to handle my relationship with Lily’s father soon.
This baby swing just saved Lily’s life.
Not really, but I’m so thankful for this damn thing. She was being so rotten and it made her pass out in less than a minute.
Baby Raphael.
